Do you ever feel anxious?

When I was about eight I cried myself to sleep when the realisation hit me that I would never marry Alan Osmond.  Is there anything that gives you that anxious feeling?  Do you ever feel anxious that there is a fabric out there that you will never have any of or never have enough of?

There is only one line out there that makes me feel like that - that I wish would come back and let me buy it all over again only this time I would buy enough.  Authentic by Sweetwater.  It was my first ever quilting purchase, on 22 February 2010, used for my first ever quilting project and it still irks me that I didn't buy more.  I didn't know it would go and never come back.  There are so many perfect prints in that line that it doesn't make any sense that it's gone forever.

AND THEN ... just a few days ago a quiet little post appeared on Sweetwater's blog mentioning their new line, "Mama Said Sew" and, after a few photos of this and that, they whispered,"we wanted to do something similar to one of our most popular lines of fabric, Authentic." I swear I nearly fell off my chair.  Instead of the chartreuse of Authentic, Mama Said Sew's accent colour will be red.  In a favourite colour toss-up between chartreuse and red, I would have to teeter on the edge of the coin. Oh, and they're adding in grey.  Which only makes me feel more anxious.

My toes are already curling with that irrational feeling that it might all sell out before I get enough.  Ludicrous I know.  I'm even lying awake at night trying to work out just how much I can afford - how many charm packs, jelly rolls, layer cakes, fat eighth packs, fat quarter bundles and yardage.  I've even allowed the word bolt to run through my head, which has never happened before.

I sometimes watch that program, Hoarders, and feel quite smug that I'm not like that, I don't hoard anything until it becomes a problem just for the sake of having enough of it.  Well I hope that's not about to change.